Yes I know that it was stupid from my side to not work as it will attract issues in my life, But see how can i escape all this?

I need to have some sort of feeedom in life. I worked for the main part of my life under others and i seriously never achieved anything . and i realised if i be there i will never be anything inlike the common sayings of the peoples that it will get better. it will not get better and anyone will view me as a slave as long as i work.its so heartbreaking that i lost most of my good work exposure times.

i have the humilty to accept that i lost it.i dream about being a it professional and having standard life conditions. i tried so hard in my college to beone. iwas unable to do that. i was not religious i had no beliefs. everyone used me back then, people used me as  a dump truck.

My innocense was exploited everywhere, and everyone around me was smilling seeing my downfall,and they still smile,

whatever I will keep designing soemthing like minimal posters and stuff, because i learned hat someway its an art and ai has come / so the opportunities should either expand itself.